Saturday, June 13, 2009

We're Going Riding On The Freeway

I am so excited to share some happy, happy, happy thoughts with you this time!

First of all, I woke up this morning and read the scale- and guess what? I've lost 20 pounds since the end of last summer!!!!!!! I still have a long way to go, but it doesn't matter. I am SO PSYCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then I went and worked out, did intervals on the elliptical, and I couldn't even believe how good it felt! I came home and jumped up and down and shook my husband, saying, "I feel so great!!!!" What used to be hard before, was a cake walk. I felt powerful. I know I'm getting stronger, but it still challenged me enough to really get those endorphins flowing and of course the sweat was flowing a ton. I wanted it not to be over when it was over, and I wanted to dance & do cartwheels afterwards, to show how awesome I felt.

And I have some updating to do. First of all, I feel like I'm armed with some knowledge that will help me succeed this time, in the weight loss department. (And as a disclaimer, if I hit a "speed bump," I will pick myself up and keep going... but right now we're on the freeway, man!) :)
  1. I've been diagnosed with PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome.). It involves not only cysts on your ovaries, but also your body mismanages insulin, and your hormones are all messed up. It is a disorder that can affect your metabolism, and similar to thyroid, you can gain a ton of weight, and it is super tough to take it off. I found an article on the Real Age website that named PCOS as one of the top 3 things that may stop people from losing weight when they're doing everything right. (The other two were thyroid & sleep apnea.) I am now taking the drug, Metformin. It is a diabetes drug, not a weight loss drug, but sometimes people taking it have a bit of relief from some of the PCOS symptoms. I've only been on it for 6 weeks & I haven't reached the full dosage yet, but I have started to see a glimmer of hope. But mainly, knowledge is power. Even if I get no relief from its effects, and my metabolism stays sluggish, at least I know I really do need to try harder than the average person to lose weight, and so I'll give it my all & I won't give up. When I found out I had PCOS, it was like, "SEE I TOLD YOU!!!!! I AM NOT SITTING ON MY COUCH EATING BON BONS! I WORK OUT MORE AND EAT HEALTHIER THAN ANYONE I KNOW, YET I STILL WEIGH THIS MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Vindicated towards anyone who might have judged me. :( And it underlines the reason I named this blog, "It's Just Not That Simple." Because, well, it's not. Calories in, calories out is not the whole story.
  2. Summer is a hard time for me. Last summer the anxiety & depression I suffer from got so much worse. I stopped working out & started eating worse & as a result gained 20 pounds. Yep, the 20 I just lost. :( So I'm hoping knowing the pitfalls are out there will help me avoid them a bit. For some people winter is hard, and people just try to maintain their weight through the holidays, but for me, I know the nightmare season is summer. So I can give myself a friggin' break, if I gain a pound or two, and I can yell extra hard at myself to get to the gym, because it will just be my lying, depressed, negative thoughts trying to talk me out of it. Take THAT, Negative Thoughts! I'm on to you!!!